The Fic Writing
02 August 2004 // 11:40 a.m.I like to write. I don't delude myself into thinking that anything I write is any good, but I do it and sometimes I post it online.
I like to write fanfiction. I like the way that I can manipulate characters and scenarios to give my own slant on what they are thinking and feeling. When I read books, I have this tendency to develop attatchments to characters, and I believe that this is what leads me to want to write about them.
I like to write slash fanfiction. As in male/male. What can I say, apart from "It's hot" and with some characters, it's just meant to be.
However, I despise writer's block. I've been very involved in Harry Potter slash of late, and I decided that I wanted to write a Draco/Harry fic. But when I put pen to paper, all that I managed to spew out was a long history of Draco Malfoy's life, and a few jotted notes on how he could form a relationship with a certain Harry Potter.
It's difficult when it comes to the Draco/Harry 'ship - or, as it's known among 'shippers, the S.S. Guns 'n' Handcuffs. There are so many clichés and stereotypical characterisations, especially fanon!Draco.
But lately...lately I've gained inspiration somewhat. The document is open and sitting in front of me, Draco's history condensed, and Harry making more of an appearance. I'm all set to go.
But deep down inside, I'm scared to write it because I'm ashamed.
I'm ashamed to carry on writing this hidieously normal fic. I'm ashamed to drag a tortured Draco out of my writing closet. And, most of all, I'm ashamed that nothing I write will ever be good enough, or worth any notice.
So what do you think? To write, or not to write?
