The Night Before The Night Before
08 October 2004 // 11:53 p.m.Leaving home is a very odd feeling. I teeter from emotion to emotion, sometimes forgetting entirely that I am going, only to remember with a nervous jolt in my stomach.
On the one hand, this is something I have been longing for for quite some time; independance.
Pure and simple. I will be looking after myself, doing everything for myself, and starting from scratch. This is a liberating feeling, and something that I'm sure I can handle.
But while I can be very sensible, there is something of a reckless part of me that wants to really let go and go mad when I go to university. As strange as it may seem, a part of me wants to do all of the things we are warned not to do while we are away.
The "sensible" voice in my head usually wins out, and I know that I value my education far too much to mess up.
Then there's the fear of going away from my home, my family, and everything that makes home comfortable and mine. It's better that I move out to University, where everyone is alone, and everyone is afraid.
But that doesn't stop me lying awake at night trembling in fear and anticipation.
I guess we'll just have to go see how it goes...
